And now....

More gardening.

Mom and I made a patch for the strawberries ( both big and small ones ) and the poor little rhubarb today. These plants have been badly neglected due to unforeseen events. They needed to be saved and finally it was their day. I'll admit mom did most of the digging sadly.

This is just the start tho. We're gonna extend the patch and make a new one eventually because mom wants to buy some blueberries and a cute white kind of strawberries. I totally agree. 

I'm very happy that my mom is sharing her garden with me. But I'm really missing my poor lonely plants I left when I moved up here. I tried to convince my ex hubby to take care of them a little but we'll see if he does. I'll give them some love when I'm there again.

Oh ye, not to forget. We planted a little bush too.

Lots of tlc for the garden today.

I love summer.

It's blooming outside.

It's very sunny and warm.

And only 2 days left until Swiss.

Awesome.

It's also random picture day. Or maybe not so random.

Towel day !

Someone said it's the towel day today.

So ofc I had to go find one to have with me. Don't brand me insane here now, but I actually bought a towel just for this day last year. Unfortunately that towel is stuffed in a box down in Lkpg along with the rest of my belongings. But no worries. My mom knows the importance of good towels. She had one in just the right size. I had it with me all day. After all, he does say to never leave home without it. I wonder how many ppl saw it and thought , wtf ? *Giggle*

Let there be summer !

A few days of rain and two days of awesome sun.

And now I'd have to say we've got summer here too. Awesome.

I'm just a little worried we'll have a setback. I guess we'll see.

Gardening.

I went digging in the garden the other day.

Mom and I decided it was time to create a little herb garden.

It was very interesting. I found an ant nest.

And a caterpillar, who sadly got eaten by the ants. 

And a cute stripey snail that I managed to save from the ants.

But somehow I forgot to take a pic of the herbs.

 

More Swiss daydreaming.

Can you tell I'm missing Mr Awesome and Swiss ? It's a little bit funny. It's like I'm missing it even more now that I know I'm going to travel there again. And I have to admit, I've been looking at tickets just to see how much it would cost to buy a later return ticket than the one I already have. But it's just wishful thinking.

I've been looking at my pictures from my other 4 visits. Wish I had more pictures of Mr Awesome, but the ones I have are sweet. Today I decided to try my luck with Photoshop again. Found a nice tutorial on YouTube on how to make images look older. And it was simple enough for me to understand. Lol.

The "frame" thingy is something I've found on one of my random "find stuff for Photoshop" Google runs. I'm not sure I used it "right", but I like how it looks anyway. I love this photo. Even before the tampering. It's totally awesome just as the person on it. And I'm gonna see him again. Wohoo. *Makes a little happy dance*

Work in progress.

I've been thinking about this a lot. And by a lot I mean REALLY really a lot. And finally, after months of thinking. I am finally starting to see that deep inside of me, those tiny parts that used to be me and my strengths. They're still there. If I think about this a little more, and try even harder, sooner or later I think I'll get back to that state again.

But I wonder how long it will take before I can finally start to care about my self again. Maybe if I continue to take care of my self and work on my self esteem, I'll finally care again. Self esteem and self worth. I guess they are my biggest ghosts to conquer. It's a good thing I have have my select few but very awesome friends to help keep me going.

And who is on the pic ? Mr Awesome ofc.

*capu chu*

Awesomeness.

In about 3 weeks, a little less than 3 actually. I'm of to visit my most awesome Sigi and my other amazing friends in Swiss. I can barely stand the waiting. I haven't been there for almost 2 years now. Ye I know I'm repeating my self. I just love the ppl and that place so much. I can go on and on for hours about it.

I've only got one issue. It's only for 2 weeks. *sob* Well ofc it's hell of a lot better than just staying 1 week, or even nothing at all. But I miss my first visit. I stayed there for about 5 week total. It was awesome, but it was very hard to leave when the time came. But oh how I'd love to stay there that long again. *sigh*

Oh well. Awesomeness is awesomeness. I'm thrilled.

Talk to the hand.

This is the day of complaints. Things are messed up. Yesterday I helped my mom in the garden. That's not a bad thing, I like gardening. But today my back is telling me that digging up those plants was not a good idea. It's not a bad pain, just enough to know I'm alive.

But I am unhappy with the way things are going right now. I tried getting an education in our big city, but it's too complicated and my head just makes it even worse so I decided to ignore it for now. Even tho it is very interesting and tempting. I might go back to it again later.

I also applied to another education in my old city. But it's a bit late so the chances on getting in aren't too big. And even if I get accepted, we run into my second issue and also my third. I have finally ( way too late ) called the health clinic here and put my self on the waiting list.

I hope to get sterilized. Since I don't want, and never ever have wanted, babies. In fact it's only an obstacle in my life. My second problem is that I gotta wait to see the doc and the shrink. It's gonna take around 3 months. Just around the time when I'll find out about school.

And the third problem... I need to magically find 1300:- . Cuz that's what the operation will cost. I admit, it's way way better than where I last lived. They took around 13000:- for the same thing. But, since I don't have an income what so ever. It's still a bitch.

I don't know what to do with this mess. Sooner or later I'm gonna have to choose. Live with this awful thing but  get an education. Or wait and hope for the education to happen later and be 1300:- in debt to a friend. God how I hate owing money to people.

Home.

Today I learned something new about my self. I am much less antsy and worried if something goes wrong with my travel plan. That's a good one. And over all it's getting much easier to travel alone. Woho. Needless to say, there was a slight hiccup today. But I stayed calm and now I'm home in Le Dungeon again.

I was greeted by a letter from my doc saying that my gyn test was ok. Good good. A package from my online shopping containing replacement bullets for my piercings. Most needed. A dead plant, a bug infected plant and a very water hungry plant. And last but not least, my family and the cats.

I'll deal with the bugs and plants tomorrow. As well as my unpacking and hopefully some laundry. I've got a little list of things piling up that I will need to take care of sooner than later. But for the night I'm just going to enjoy the afterglow of my most excellent trip. Awesome despite my sudden sickness.